Crucified for Lent
By Carri Pratt
I really love my husband.
I did not fully realize how deeply I loved my husband until I decided to
crucify my past hurts and my selfishness to the cross in honor of the lent
season. I decided this year rather than
just giving up sweets I would give up anger and frustration towards my spouse as
well. Easier said then done.
I also made a vow to serve my husband in some way every day
as Jesus served others. One night when
he arrived home from work I walked over to him, plopped a pillow down in front
of him, took off his shoes and began to massage his feet (probably his favorite
act of service). He looked at me in
disbelief and asked me why I was doing this and I replied, “because I love you.” It was an incredible moment between us.
I continued to pray that God would strengthen me and do this
through me. I prayed that God would give
me His love for my husband and that I would have a burning desire for him.
It is absolutely remarkable the feelings and turmoil I have
been through in such a short amount of time.
I have experienced immense vulnerability, paranoid thoughts of him
having an affair and leaving me, magical moments of bliss, renewed memories of
when we first met, and most pleasantly surprising is a heated passion behind
closed doors. (my friends refer to this
as an additional fruit of the spirit “passion fruit”)
The only way I can make sense out of this is that I am
finally following God’s design for marriage.
I am not living just for myself but also for my husband while being
obedient to Jesus Christ. Paul stated it
this way, “and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by
faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.” Galatians 2:20 HCSB If Christ did that for me, then surely I can
do that for my husband.
I could not have imagined the blissful feelings within my
heart towards my man. “Take
delight in the LORD, and He will give you your heart’s desires.” Psalm 37:4 NLT
that God’s ways are best and take a chance that the result will be your heart’s