Suzie vs. Husband
By Suzie M.
My husband and I are in the process of buying a “new”
vehicle. When we first began this
process I was all excited because after driving my car for the past 10 years I was
finally getting a new car! Well, the
wind was quickly knocked out of my sail.
This Christian walk thing is hard. Sometimes, I want to act like a four year old
and stomp my feet and whine to get my way.
My husband and I were not on the same page when we began our
car buying process. We had decided that
we really needed to get a minivan. We
have three girls with lots of stuff and friends and my Explorer is getting very
cramped. Well I was thinking new leather
seats, moon roof, DVD player the whole works.
I had been praying about a new vehicle for a while knowing both our cars
were aging quickly. I thought, “God is
totally answering my prayers!” We drive
our cars for a long time so a new car makes total sense right?
I had it all worked out in my mind. There are more details but they aren’t
important to this story. As we began
discussing the car situation we immediately realized we were on two totally
different levels. He said ok let’s look
at some used Odysseys and the Kias. Well
I made sure to let him know that his idea did not make any sense at all and I
wanted to only look at the new Odysseys.
I was not driving a Kia for heaven’s sake and have you looked at the
price of a used vehicle, well you might as well buy new, in my mind. Like I said, I had been praying about this
and I felt like this was an answered prayer but the Kia was not what I had in
mind.
Needless to say God has a plan for everything. Luckily His ways are not my ways. After a
weekend of tears, being mad at one another, calling my godly friend who I knew
would see things my way, lots of prayers and bible time, the Lord hit me over
the head with a two by four.
This story came up two days in a row in two different bible
studies and in two different books of the bible. Mark and Luke, the story of “The Rich Young
Man” (Mark 10:17-31), the rich man asks Jesus how he can inherit eternal life
and Jesus responds with following the commandments, he says I already do that
but Jesus came back with “Go, sell everything you have and give to
the poor…then come follow me.”
The rich man can’t do it. Jesus
tells us, “it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a
rich man to enter the Kingdom of God.”
Ouch!!! Then the
Proverb for the day in my One Year Bible was “One man pretends to be rich, yet
has nothing; another pretends to be poor, yet has great wealth.” Proverbs 13:7
You think God is trying to tell me something? Oh yeah!
I could hear Him loud and clear.
You see, we really don’t have the money to take on a big car payment and
we don’t have enough cash to buy a fancy new car I had my eyes on. However I like nice things, I like expensive
things and I try to pretend like we have all this money when we don’t.
Ok Suzie, get out the white flag. It’s time to surrender. Even as slow as I am I knew God was telling
me to surrender this whole car issue and let my husband be the one to make the
tough decision. He knows what we can
take on financially and I was trying to manipulate him and the entire
situation. If I hadn’t given this up we
could end up in a bad financial situation.
I called him at work and told him I was sorry and I would drive whatever
he decided that this was his decision.
He was so thankful. He told me he
wanted to cry. By surrendering this I
took a huge weight off his shoulders because my husband thinks the world of me
and he would do whatever it takes to make me happy.
To surrender is to humble yourself. Jesus completely surrendered himself to the
Father to the point of death. In that
perspective this car seems so silly.
Really, what eternal value is there in what kind of car I drive? Instead of buying the most expensive car I
could buy a used lesser expensive one and use the saved money for eternal use
or wherever the Lord leads. It’s pride. Pride is a messy, ugly sin and abhorred by
the Lord. I am a mess and make a mess of
much, but my Father in Heaven loves me too much. That’s why he lovingly disciplines me with
His Word. He uses it to prune and refine
me. It can be a painful process but the
rewards last forever and that is longer and better than any car on the market.
Challenge: What do
you need to surrender today? What in
your life is not lining up with God’s will?
This is a process, let God work through you. I am right here with you. To surrender daily sometimes hourly is God’s
will for you and me. I am praying for us all to not just pray for our problems
and decisions but to surrender them!
“Cast all your cares on Him because He cares for
you.” 1 Peter 5:7